I don’t remember when it happened
at some point you were just
another face
another name in the crowd.
I don’t remember when it happened
the day you stopped
loving me
maybe it was the same day I stopped
loving you
I don’t remember how, either
whether it was a mistake or
something we both wanted
I don’t remember what our song was
but I do remember it once was beautiful
I don’t remember the melody but
I remember the soft warm tone and the steadfast drums beating as one whole heart
I don’t remember when the song stopped playing
nor do I remember what happened after
I don’t know how to miss you
I don’t even know if I want to
I have forgotten who hurt who
and I have forgotten if we tried to.
I remember the smell of the fallen leaves
but not where they belonged.
I remember the silk satin sheets, not the bed in which they sat
I can’t recall the day I lost you
I don’t know if I wanted to
I cant say that I miss you
but I miss the future we never had
I remember that future
ever changing as it was, I do.
I remember each vacation, flying far, feeling free
I remember the smile that never showed upon your face
I know the love I felt for those we will never meet and I know the care neither of us ever took
I don’t know if I loved you.
But I know one day-
I would have